Another Long One

Well today was just as long as yesterday, but I didn't have to clean the fryer. One guy from another dept even helped for a while. But it stayed busy so the day went by faster than I expected.

Kari had a stay home day with Grandma today. Grandma tried to put her down for a nap, but she wouldn't fall asleep for anything. Needless to say she was a little grump when I got home. But we went outside and played with her water table for about 20 min, but it got so hot that my ear lobs were sweating so we came inside for some juice. We ate some dinner of mac and cheese and strawberries and Kari grabbed her cup, blanket, book and big Dora and went to her bed. She was laying down ready to sleep before I even turned the light off. Yea for long days.

I had another day of not wanting to work out, but I did it as soon as I put Kari to bed. I really starting to get better at the cardio, but I wish I hadn't stopped dancing all those years ago. I'm so out of shape it isn't funny. But I'm feeling muscles in my legs that I hadn't realized were there for years. So five days down with Jillian Michaels 25 more to go. Lets see if I loose any weight or I just tone up a little. Either way I'm feeling better now and have more energy to play with Kari.

Wore out!!

Today has been one of those days that I just wanted to get back into bed. I got to work and had to do an hour and half of work that should have been done the night before. But I guess that's the way it goes. Then I had the Co-Director tell me to call the person that was to come in at 12pm and tell her not to come in until 2pm. So I wasn't able to take a meal today. Didn't have enough time to get everything done and be away from the department for 30 min. So life goes... Then while I was using the rest room, I realized my pants had wore out and I had holes in the legs.

So after I got off work, I picked up Kari, came home and took my holy pants off and flew to the store to get new pants to wear tomorrow.

For the last week I've worked out after Kari's gone to bed, but today I REALLY didn't want to, but I pushed through it and completed my 20min workout. I haven't noticed and change in my body yet, but my legs and arms don't hurt as much as they did the first couple of days. So there's some improvement, but my cardo isn't going as well as I'd like, but I'm trying to push through it.

Weight 160lbs still the same.

It's been a while!!

I haven't written on here in a while, but I guess late is better then never.

I've stopped drinking pop, and started exercising. I've needed to for a long time and just haven't gotten around to it. Truth is I didn't want to, I've been too lazy. But I started out on a good note. I've started to loose weight just stopping drinking the pop. I've worked out every day for the last week, I haven't done that since college. I'm going to write how much I weight and write down how much I loose each week. Maybe it will keep me going.

Here we are today:

July 29, 2010: Weight 160lbs

I worked out so hard today that my legs are hurting in places that I didn't know they could.

Kari also took a nap!!! Yahoo.

Potty Training and New Room

Kari's going to be turning 2 in a couple of months. Since she was born, she has slept in my room, due to no extra rooms in the house. Well we had one guy move back home and had a room empty out. So I decided to clean it up, paint and make it her room. I had asked her daddy, who is a professional painter, to paint it for me. I had been asking since January, and all he did was paint the celling. So I bought a paint roller, paint and borrowed a brush and painted it my self. I got all of her things in the room, and told her daddy that she slept in her own room for the first time and he said she was too small to sleep alone. Most fathers I know want their kids to sleep in their own room in their own beds, but not hers. This is the most stupid thing I have ever heard in my life.

On a happier note, Kari has been wearing big girl Dora panties all day long. She peed 3 times in her panties, but for her first day, that's good. She even pooped in her potty chair too. I was so excited. But she did poop a little in her panties too, but she's getting the hang of it. Hopefully she won't be in diapers for long... :)

New Resolve!!!

Inspired by a friend and her family, I've decided to do the 30 day shed by Jillian Michaels from the Biggest Looser. I've got to do something to loose some of this weight. I just completed my first workout in a long time. I don't think I've worked out, I mean really worked out sense I was in College. My legs and arms are going to kill me tomorrow, but I'm GOING to do this. I need to. Let's see if I feel this same way next week. I'm going to work out every day right after Kari goes to bed for the night. 20 minutes a day isn't going to kill me, I just need to get healthy again.

Sick Kid!!!

I love it when daddy comes and visits, he's sick and stays two days. He's in close area with my daughter, watches her, has her play next to him. Then goes away. 7 days later, the incubation period is over and she gets sick. Throws up, diarrhea and the whole nine yards. Everyone in the house gets sick. Whey would you do that to her? He new he was sick, but still didn't even have a thought to STAY AWAY from us. Now for the last 5 days, both Kari and I, plus everyone in the house, has been sick. We've finally gotten over most of it. But still. IF YOU ARE SICK DON'T COME HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kari's Daddy

I got a phone call Thursday night saying that Kari's daddy was coming for the weekend and he wanted her. Alright, I can handle that. (saves me a little money). So I get ready for work Friday morning and head off. Work my 8 hour shift. Head home. I get to my bedroom door, open to Dora on TV, Kari playing on my bed, and her daddy sleeping. I change my clothes, pick up Kari and notice she has a full diaper. I say "Wow you have a full diapie". Her daddy said "I changed her diaper 2 times today, you can do it." He changed her diaper only 2 times in a 9 hour period. (lucky she didn't get diaper rash) I asked him what she had eaten. He said she had a can of chicken (like tuna) and carrots. In a 9 hour period she ate a can of chicken and carrots (oh and some root beer).

I lay her down on my bed to change her diaper and she screams "bye bye bye bye bye bye". She didn't want to spend any more time in that bed than she had too. What the hell am I going to do with him? Kari loves him, but he's not good for her.

On Saturday, he decided to leave while I was still at work. He asked Grandma if she could watch Kari till I got home. What would he do if she said no? leave her alone. Man what am I going to do with him????//

Laundry

I put soap, water, fabric softener, clothes, etc... in the washer and left it. I went back an hour later. Water was full, clothes were wet, but that washer wasn't washing. I pushed, pulled, flipped breakers, and unplugged, to no avail, the washer wasn't' going to agitate. Man, life sucks. I pulled my clothes out, rinsed and rung out all the clothes. My hands hurt more that they had in a long time. But I put the clothes in the dryer, and they were ready the next morning.

But that washer still isn't working. So to wash all my daughter's clothes, I'm going to sit on my short day at work, and wash clothes at the laundry mat. Man I have better things to do that sit at the laundry mat and wash 20 pair of toddler socks. Yeah, me....

Lets see how long it takes me...

SO Sad

Well, my time off is over. I'm back to real life tomorrow. I'm so disappointed in myself. Yet again I didn't do anything. It was too cold to take Kari out in the weather. Then when we went to Grandma Faye's house we didn't do anything again. Well I've got to do something soon or I'm going to bust.

My Vacation

I'm so excited for my time off of work. I haven't had a vacation in over a year. I took time off before I had Kari, until I started work after Maternity leave, but that really wasn't a vacation. I wish I had the money to go away, but being a single mom, who works for little money and a baby daddy who doesn't always give me the money that I need, well I don't get to go anywhere.

I'm going to get Kari's 18 month picts taken tomorrow. I have a shirt that says "I Love Mommy"and a pair of jeans. She's going to look sooo cute. I think I'm going to put her hair up in pig tails. It's getting long enough.

I'm just ready for something new, something to change, or someone to change... but I don't think that will happen anytime soon.

Day Care or Baby Sitter????

This week I've been contemplating changing from a baby sitter to a daycare. I like that she's in with people I know, but the babysitter schedule is getting on my nerves. Every time we talk I swear it's something different. No Sundays, (okay I can live with that), No Mondays, Tuesday, or Thursday nights, (we work around that), if I take her Saturdays it's more money, (okay I can handle that,) but when I first started to take Kari to her, I worked nights, but for the last 6 months I've been working days. Well now I have to close two nights a week, because we got new district management and that's what they want. Well nights don't work for her anymore. I pay her more money than the other babysitter, and get a cranky, sleep deprived child back at the end of the day. My good for nothing baby's daddy told me that he's not going to take care of her so I have to figure out what I'm going to do on my own.

I love my life some days...

Wic Office

Today, I went to the Wic office to pick up checks for my daughter. There are two very nice ladies that work in there, but there is one lady that thinks she is better than everyone else. For the most part I tell them what they want to hear because they look down on you if you don't do what they want you to do. Kari's pediatrician told me to take Kari to the dentist at age 2, but the wic office lady said she should have been there by the time she turned one. Hum who should I listen to. The Doctor with a degree, or the nutritionist that works for the state. Hum medical school, or a class or two? I don't think it's hard to choose. The doctor wins my vote... The dentist can wait.

Vacation

I'm so excited to have a break from work. Not so much a vacation, but just a break. Can't afford a go away vacation, but Kari and I are going to do things to get to know Central Florida better. We are going to go to Downtown Disney, maybe visit the beach, not that we are going to swim, but still. I need to do more things in this beautiful area. Right now all I do is work and go home, maybe shop, but nothing more. So I'm going to look at the Central Florida visitors brochure and get some ideas. Lets see how we do... more to come.

Stupid People!!!!

I have never been a fan of stupid people. But today takes the cake. My uncle's brother is a habitual drunk, but doesn't see it. He's fallen two times today and wanted me to pick him up. But him being 6ft and me 5ft, I'm not quite big enough. So I had to call 911 twice. The second time he shit his pants. A 58 year old man shit his pants because he can't get himself up off the floor. I thought I was going to throw up because he smelled so bad. I don't know when the last time he has taken a shower.

I'm glad that my daughter was in bed both times that he fell. He'd really hurt her if he fell on her. He almost hit his head on a book shelf. I really wish that his mom would put her foot down, but he rules the roost. He gets what he wants too. When he's drunk he needs to sit his ass down and stay put, or use his cane and or walker. I don't know what I'm going to do.

Tired...

My daughter has so much energy she wears me out. She keeps going and going and going, like the energizer bunny, I just don't know how to keep up some days. After getting up at 5:15 every morning, working 8 hours, the coming home to feed, bathe, and get her ready for bed, it takes a lot out of me everyday. But then she looks at you, gives you kisses and gets in bed, it makes everything worth it.

Dr. Apt

Kari had her 18 month doctor appointment today. She got two shots and didn't even cry one tear. She's a tough little girl. She's doing just fine in her development. The doctor asked if she could talk, then Kari wouldn't stop. She was even trying to jump for the doctor. Which is funny because she has the movements down, but her feet don't leave the floor.

She makes me laugh at everything. She's the sunshine everyday, even when it's raining and we can't go outside. She's content just watching and playing with Dora and her blanket. I wish I didn't have to work, I would stay with her everyday all day long. I defiantly miss her during the day.

My rut...

I wish I could get out of my rut. I do the same things everyday. I need something to change. I want something new. I'm thankful for a job right now. I need something different. I've been working in the Deli for three years. unless something happens where I have new challenges, I think I'm going to scream.

Kari and I live in a beautiful state, and all we do is work or stay home. I want to take weekends off and go do something with her, give her new experiences, new memories for both of us. On our stay home days, we do the same thing. We get up, eat breakfast, watch Dora, play, take nap, maybe go to the store, eat lunch and dinner, take a bath and hit the sack. I just don't know anymore. I remember when I was younger, I'd take road trips on a minute notice, but now with Kari, just going to the store is hard to handle, when she doesn't want to be strapped down. Family and friend want me to visit, but flying across the country with a toddler isn't easy when you are by yourself. I listen and laugh, they obviously don't know her. But I've lived in Florida for 5 years, and they have never once visited me. They didn't even visit me when I was in college. They were suppose to pick me up when I graduated, all I got was oh we're going to rent you a car instead. I guess I can't expect anything else from them. I've never been that important to them.

That was just rambling, oh well. This is my spot and I'm going to write what I want.

Nap Time

For the third day in a row, the babysitter didn't give my daughter a nap. Yea I understand that her car is broken down, but shoot, she's a baby, who needs her sleep. She gets home and is cranky and grumpy and can't do anything without crying up a storm. She started to cry just because she wanted my food, and not hers, (which was the same anyway). Tired baby...

no naps...

I love when the baby sitter keeps Kari up all day then says we were busy. She's cranky and cries at the drop in the hat. She's soooo tired that she can't stop crying. So tonight Kari went to bed about an hour early because she couldn't keep anything together. She didn't even want to get in the bathtub, which she loves. Sometimes I don't know how to get my point across to people. I wish everyone would think like me. I base my days off around her nap time, I get my errands done early, so she has time to sleep.

She's got a runny nose, which I think is because we have the heater on, because its freezing outside. So I even had to give her allergy meds so she could breath while she sleeps. I just want to scream. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Really I wish I could stay home with her, but for insurance reasons, can't afford to quit. Maybe I need a job that I could stay home with her. Who knows????

Money

I want daddy to pay for everything that I pay for each week, just once and let him decide if $80 a week is good enough...

Sleep

I wish that Kari's daddy would listen to me when it comes to Kari's bedtime. He had her up late two nights in a row. Today (the second day), she took a 20 min nap, while we were driving in the car. My little girl was soooo tired because of him say she'll go to sleep when she wants too. Its going to be a while before I go back to grandmas house, just because it take so much out of Kari.

My Unique View

I've decided to use this blog to write about my unique views as a single mom. How I deal with the day to day issues.

I was excited to have three days off in a row. Christmas season is over and all the other co-workers are back from vacation, so my days off lined up just right. I decided to take Kari to see her daddy, grandma, uncle and aunt in Crystal River, Florida. (which is the coldest few days of the year). Just packing for this trip was hard, I had to buy her a winter coat, and a couple of sweaters. It got cold here. I moved to Florida because it didn't get this cold but 28 degrees is cold. But that's besides the point. The trip started out hard.

We got to grandma's house around 1pm. We played until dad got home from work. We ate dinner, then dad went outside and hung out with the neighbor, while we sat inside. Why did I drive 2 hours to spend time with him, and he stayed out in the cold. Then Uncle Doug and Aunt Carol were cleaning, and getting ready for bed at 9pm and kept talking to Kari. My daughter didn't go to bed until after 10pm. But they don't understand she gets up at 6 every day and would still be getting up that early, but would be a grump all day long. They wouldn't be dealing with it, because they all go to work. They leave that lovely little girl tired and a pain in the butt, to me. But they sure didn't want us to leave, so they promised to be better. I have to say tonight she went to bed a whole lot earlier. (Yeah) I know they don't spend much time with babies, but they did once have kids, they should know how important schedules for little ones are.

We're headed home tomorrow. We're going to leave a little earlier than we normally do. It's cold outside and I want to get home before it gets dark, and even colder. I want Kari to go to bed on time, since I have to work Friday morning. I'm grateful to spend time with her family, but sometimes I wonder if it's worth all the bother. They don't come and visit us. It's always Kari and I doing the driving, spending the money, and loosing sleep. They stay in the lives and we just butt in for a little while.

Starting Something New

This year I want to try something new. Many friends have blogs, so I'm going to give it a try. I'm working at a grocery store in the deli department. I do the work of an assistant manager, but don't get paid for it. But hopefully will soon get the promised promotion.

My daughter will be 18 months old on January 16th. I can say she's the best thing that I have in my life. Everyday is a new adventure with her. On mornings I have to work, i get her out of bed, change her diaper, and the first thing she says is "Dora". My funny little girl wants to watch Dora at 6am. She doesn't want to get out of bed, but she wants to watch Dora. Some days the only way I can get her to come in the house is the promise of Dora. Sad but it works. For Christmas her daddy bought her a Dora doll that is as big as she is. First thing she does when we get home from the babysitter is get that doll out of her bed. SOOOOOOOOOO cute.

As for her daddy, we are hit and miss. He's a sometimes dad. But he's around sometimes. Kari doesn't call the babysitters husband daddy anymore, but she still prefers "Mr. Bill" over her daddy though.

As for me, I really don't know what I want to do with my life. Right now I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. Can't afford to quit work to go back to school, but don't make enough money to live without family's help. Don't know what I'm going to do. But this year, I'm making it my goal to figure out what I want to do when I grow up. Stay tuned to find out more. lol